I love the saying that aim of the yoga is to create space were once stuck. To unveil layers of protection you have built around your heart. To appreciate your body and become aware of the mind and the noise it creates. To make peace with who you are in creating our natural wholeness, balanced integrity of our yin and yang nature. I am naturally yang-type of person. I love sun and light, hot weather and spicy food. I function better on daytime and love to be active and spend time outside. I'`m not good at keeping emotions inside and tend to act before I think. I am loud and want everything happen here and now. Although I`m pretty earthy, I love to dream about many things and sometimes feel like the sky is the only limit. Although I love to be a woman, passionate about my home, beautiful clothes, cooking and dancing, on the same time I' m a true warrior who can handle everything without help. Tough, independent woman with lot of fire inside. So for a long time I created a very yang-like lifestyle for myself. Always planning, controlling and leading at work and home. Yes, I did achieve a lot, I had a wonderful career as a manager and I surely seemed like very gentle and amiable person. I had always my agenda in my pockets and no matter what the weather or how many times I had to try, I did it. Because I was a warrior and many times even acted like a true marshal. My way or no way. Yep hard to admit, but same at home and everywhere. Even though I was a true woman, my life was lacking yin side of being. I couldn’t trust the flow of life, I have used to plan and control everything. I was constantly planning, thinking and reacting emotionally. I didn't hear my body, I had terrible headaches, I was intensive and unbalanced. I kept on going very yang-way, when eventually life gave me painful lesson to learn. I couldn't plan anything, I just lived my life day by day not knowing what`s going to happen next. I had to live in the present moment, there was no clear future and past was full of memories. Other way was impossible. I got lesson for a lifetime. Although everything worked out fine in the end, I needed a help to find myself again. The very first yoga class I took, was kind of Yin, slow, holding poses long and just being there with my body and mind. I couldn'`t understand what was the idea of sitting there and doing barely nothing. I was counting minutes to get out of the room and away from my thoughts that were circulating in my head. I wanted to have physical exercise, to move fast and burn lot of calories. So I stepped into intensive yang yoga practice just to take care of my body. That’s how my personal journey started and how yoga approaches to many students, via physical exercise in order to get in shape, reduce stress or to find the way out from something that doesn't feel right anymore. At one point during my regular yoga-life, I got noticed that yang yoga practice was quietly sneaking into my lifestyle. I started to notice my emotional body, how my thoughts are flowing and changing and affecting my physical body. Yoga taught me flexibility in life, how to cope with other’s needs. And patience, still my biggest struggle in life. I understood that I can' `t control everything and learned how to live peace with myself when everything doesn'` t go the way I planned or decided. I started let go of things or just let them be the way they are. I understood that I can't change others, but myself. I followed the moon and let things happen way they are. I trusted the flow of life. I started to love yin in yoga and life. I let myself be in yin yoga and it was deliberating. I was amazed how it can be, that without sweating and intensive exercise you feel so light and relaxed. I felt more energy and the mind was clear as well. And believe me, it isn' `t easy to sit there with all your flowing thoughts and body that wants to move out from posture. Yin side of yoga has taught me to lose control, let things go and let them be, and this has been and still is hardest lesson in my life. While teaching, I share my personal practice, what I have learned and experienced. I teach mainly yang-style of yoga, because my personal journey began from there and I am still in love with vinyasa. To begin with the tangible part of us is more common in many ways, but still yet pretty hard to understand and control. We always say that do your practice, but listen to your body. And that listening part is very hard, we are still pushing strong and shaking in the postures doing more harm than good for our bodies. So many times we start with the yang practises, sometimes we feel something, even fall, get angry or start to cry. Then we start noticing, during or after yoga. Maybe we even listen our body and mind, learn something and the yin part has started. Sometimes while I practise, I start with yin postures to get into the skin and bones and slowly continue to feel the tangible part of human, muscles and body. I use yin yoga in my prenatal classes, I do breathing exercises to get connected to body and poses that help body to be more relaxed. I love how children get naturally yin, they feel their bones and skin, could imagine deeper tissues of the body. We are on constant journey towards wholeness and balance, integrating yin and yang sides of life. Sometimes there are more yin and other times yang, the challenge is to acknowledge the current state and to try to find balance again. Every single day of your life. Yang part is more understandable and achievable for us, because we see it, we can touch it. The yin part of life and yoga takes more time to understand, because it is hard to touch untouchable. Holding space for now is hard, being in between is difficult. You can`t push anything nor force yourself, you have to feel it in your skin, bones and with your heart. It takes time, but it is worth it. It can change your life and yang practice. It opens your body and mind in many different ways. It teaches you how to let things be as they are, when you can`t change anything. It gives you time, extends reaction time, teaches patience and stillness in life. But in the end its all about wholeness. Where dark meets light, water with fire, cold with hot, speed meets stillness, activity with patience and moon with sun. Where yang and yin are both present. Ma usun, et jooga eesmärk on luua ruumi ja rahu enda sees ning ümber. Õppida tundma oma keha, märkama oma mõtteid ning müra nende sees. Luua oma loomulikku terviklikkust, tasakaalustades yin ja yang poolt elus.
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