Sometimes, people do not dare to come to yoga class, because it seems that the body is not that fit or there is not enough flexibility to perform all those postures we have seen on the pictures. You have definitely seen yogis who are so light they could stand on their fingers feet up high or postures where you can`t distinguish where are the legs, head or hands. The perception of yoga is different- some think that yoga is all about bending, breathing and sitting, no physical effort has been made. It makes no sense to compare yourself with others, because every body and mind has their time to change. Some things come easily, some don`t. My body hasn`t been always the same: there has been larger and smaller versions of me. I`ve always loved exercising and moving my body, but on the same time I love cooking and eating. So in 2012, I was a quite curvy lady! But it didn`t bother me at all, I had clothes to wear and life was good in every way. I loved myself and others loved me. So it was pretty strange when an acquaintance marked in other day that I`ve become beautiful lately. In my opinion I`ve always been beautiful… Although I was happy with my shape, my health wasn`t that good. I had terrible migraines for years and sometimes I was lying in my bed for days and it didn`t get better. My doctor said that I should take pills every day till the end of my life! It was a shock, so I decided to find out alternatives and changed my diet. I was diagnosed lactose intolerance and advised not to eat so much gluten. I was still cooking a lot, but started to invent new non gluten, non diary recipes, because I still wanted to enjoy my food! I lost some weight, but on intense times I still had migraines, so I started doing yoga. The most important thing in yoga is to start where you are, with what you have. Although I was a bit thinner, I was weak and not really flexible. I've been noticing how my body changed during the time, it become more flexible and stronger. Yoga isn`t secret cure that makes you immediately small and slim. I have an experience of training really hard and eating healthy, but nothing changed. I even gained some weight, because of my stress level was pretty high and when there are no results it gets higher and higher! Yoga is a practice that operates on both levels- physical and mental, so it will surely help you achieve better shape. Yoga teaches to listen to your body and diminishes stress level, that is crucial in losing weight, if this is your main goal. It makes you sweat and engages your whole body and mind. Yoga helps to raise happiness level and happy people are beautiful people, even in round shape. I have seen how yoga makes people sparkle, they become happier and healthier. Even yoga clothes start to take happy colors! Vahel ei julge inimesed joogatundi tulla,
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It`s been awhile since my last entry here. It seems unbelievable, that 4 months have passed by without noticing. The end of the last yeas was difficult: weather turned grey again and mood started to take different shades of grey as well. It is the feeling in the end of the year, when you review last years resolutions and admit that you have failed in every single one. Year 2015 began with big failure. I tried to change the world, but nobody wanted change. I had to change myself or resign. I tried to leave everything behind and decided to escape to the most beautiful ashram in Bali. Although the place is heaven on earth, I couldn`t find peace, because you can`t escape from yourself. So I was wondering all the time what could have been, if I had done this and that and on the same time was trying to figure out what`s going to happen in the future. Same thoughts were going up every day and night and there were only few days before departure I could switch off my mind and enjoy my yoga practice, amazing surrounding, food and lovely people. I came back, worked a bit, but most of the time was trying to figure out what to do with my life. I decided to take a sabbatical for the summer and did everything I hadn`t got time for years. It was great summer! Then the season changed , autumn came, and weather turned grey again. I was still thinking and wondering day by day what to do with my life. I had many choices, but couldn`t decide, which was the right one. I ran 4-5 times a week and practised yoga almost every day, but nothing changed: I didn`t get stronger, thinner nor more flexible, I failed and couldn`t even do asanas I did before. The season changed again. All of sudden it was cold and everything turned white. Things started to settle down- one after another. Today, when I was walking around, it suddenly hit me. Am I living a life I have dreamed of? I don`t have to be in the office from 8 to 5 any more, I can plan my time. I dreamed of having different kind of jobs. Now I have several jobs: I still teach at the university, but also work as a prenatal yoga teacher in a beautiful studio in downtown, as well as I love to teach vinyasa classes to my yogis and yoginis in my hometown studios and can share my practice with my little yogis. I have dreamed of helping rural areas in their development and had an idea of working with youth policy. And that`s exactly what I am doing right now. I have followed my path and everything is happening right now. It is real, I live in my dreams right now. But life is not that simple. Dreams are in constant change, they grow, change and multiple. Some of them are in clear shape, but some still form and forming process is complicated and painful. You don``t know any more if they are your dreams or how these dreams fit into your current life where other dreams are just happening. Soon you discover that you are analysing past again and living in the future. But life has other plans for you. It is the same with yoga. You can push really hard, but nothing happens. And then you will start to quiet your mind, let everything go, surrender and out of blue everything happens. In sudden, you are stronger, more flexible and can do things you never dreamed of. I can`t still do the handstand, but I am curious when it`s going to happen. Be patient. Viimasest kirjutisest on möödunud 4 kuud. |
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